Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Dylan 3.13.10
That can't be my son...that's is actually what I thought today watching my 9 year old instead of sitting on the floor with the rest of his class, chose to crawl all over the rows of kids. The Principal, whom I adore, kindly walks over and rubs his back to remind him to sit still...I want to go over and say "Boy if you move again I am taking your DS for a week, DON"T MOVE". He has them snowed....at least that is how I feel...he would be have if they would be more firm.... They just had a mini concert for the PTA meeting in the gym...he sang well and danced in line, I was worried about how he would do, and it wasn't bad....and then as they sat....I tried not to care that my son was the only one to "misbehave". I want to look around at the faces of parents who I am sure is witnessing this, thinking, man that kid is out of control, He needs a big swat on his behind. No, little do they understand my son has aspbergers damn it and yes after today I get pissed. I don't know at what sometimes,,maybe that God blessed me with him,,,the sadness and frustration that comes with it,,,the inadequate feelings I have at times as a mom...am I doing this right? am I setting him up for failure by putting him in social situations? So I have started to blog now, for me really, just to write my frustrations and happiness with my days....Dylan is a great kid that has a mental issues, Its a rough path that God chose for me so I move forward and wait some days God has to carry me....
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You are doing it just right cousin. I get to give you your first comment. I am excited.
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ReplyDeleteI worked for years with students with Aspbergers and I can understand how hard it can be for you at times. I'm sure you are doing a wonderful job! God gives us these trials and then helps us through them and it makes us stronger..and then you can be a light to other people!! I'll be praying for you:)
Sara Mann (Sara Komar)
Heath, you're my hero in many ways. Keep your head up and keep plugging along! I love that you're blogging too. I expect many good stories. Love you.
ReplyDeleteMy sweet Hedu - You are carrying a heavy load - but a load worth carrying. You are not alone in this journey - even when you cant feel us or see us, your friends and your family are lifting you, Thom & the boys up in prayer. Rest in the Lord. Put that load down at His feet and use His strength when you have to pick it up again.
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